Goal #99. Take a picture for each letter of the alphabet So with that being said...I have started the A-Z photography project and here is the result! It's not very creative, but what do you expect from a woman cooped up while recovering from surgery?
Yay! My munchkin is back from over at my in-laws. I'm so glad because for a second, she didn't even seem like the same child. I really don't like when Sofia is gone so long because it seems everything is turned upside down. Her sleep schedule, her behavior and for some reason she is seemingly "potty trained" and wearing panties. I didn't believe that for a second and she proved me right by giving me a bomb of a accident one night. I dare not think if she was wearing panties during that time. Gives me goosebumps, for serious! But she's slowly turning back into my girl. It truly sucks when your child is gone from you for a long time. I missed holding her and kissing on her while I was recovering. I'm getting those moments back little by little from her. She doesn't hesitate to give Mommy some kiss and cuddle time. I love her for that.
Last night I watched Teen Wolf all day long to get ready for the Season 4 Premiere. It was worth the wait, I think. On Tumblr last night there were so many people complaining that Season 4 was going to be bad because it's not the same as before where they were all about high school and stuff. Well, guys! They won't be in high school forever! They have to grow as characters! Especially now that Scott is an Alpha. He can't just sit around doing homework and lacrosse as a werewolf all the time. He's supernatural now so it's only fitting that he's around supernatural things. At least that's that's what I think.
I love Kira so far. I liked her in the last season, and I just keep on adoring her. She's awkward yet strong and there is something about a budding romance between two supernatural beings. While the romance with Allison and Scott was awesome and one we won't forget, they were split up before her untimely death and I hope they don't have Scott in grieving for a long time. Time to move forward. Kira seems to be his new way to go.
Now one thing I'm not feeling so far is the arrival of Malia. It feels like she was just kind of rushed into a new main character. While I understand that she's important, Issac was important for a long time and wasn't even considered a main character enough to be put in the opening credits. I also understand that she's a partner for Stiles too, but still...I feel like I should have had some time to get used to her like we did with Kira. Another thing I don't think I like was the whole return of Kate Argent. All of the Argents are pretty much an endangered species and with Allison gone it just doesn't feel right at all. But write on, writers! Make it work.
Anyway regardless, this episode was pretty awesome and I can't wait to see what happens next.
Onward....to writing! Wow! It's amazing what stores up in your head while you are recovering from surgery. Ever since I have been able to get up and around, I have been writing. Mostly on my Soramerica Series which is about a run-down futuristic America brought down by a somewhat curable disease and run by a tyrant emperor. I have been writing this for years now and I'm just now getting somewhere with it. By somewhere I mean chapters. I'm now currently on chapter 5 with it and with it being 15 chapters, that's pretty good for me. Hopefully I will be able to publish it or make it a ebook somewhere. If not I'll be proud that I was even able to finish it. If you are interested in looking at what I consider inspiration for my current story, take a look at my Tumblr for it. Keep in mind however...there are pictures that are NSFW so look when it's safe to.
It's a beautiful day and I'm happy to be recovered enough to write something in this blog of mine. It's been so long and I am still not 100% me yet. Once I am I'll be able to do other things with Sofia and take more pictures of her. Hope you guys are having a wonderful week and I'll write again soon!
My recovery is going well. I'm still sore in some places but overall, my energy is better and I'm walking around better as well. But yesterday, I hit a sad spot. I was thinking about my future regarding my surgery and it's making me wonder if I have made a good choice.
First off, my hernia repair was done with mesh so I have this square of mesh inside of me. I was skeptical of it when my surgeon/doctor first told me about it. But I figured that I didn't have a choice and so went with it. But now as I'm researching about mesh, I see all these stories about how the mesh constantly makes people hurt. I'm hoping to the Lord above that doesn't happen to me, that I will recover and barely feel this mesh inside of me. It's nerve racking to think of the future, but I do it so often.
The biggest thing I'm worried about however, is the future when it comes to having another baby. The mesh is attached to my muscles and so, it won't stretch with a baby whenever I'm pregnant. I'll have to go through pain of the mesh along with pain of pregnancy so it's making me wonder if it's even worth planning for #2. If Sofia will be enough for me. Juan says that if it comes down to it, he would be ok with just one child. But what about me? What do I think? I just always thought I would have more than one kid. I wanted more than one kid. A brother or sister for Sofia to play with, to take care of. She's already so distant from kids anyway.
So many thoughts in my mind regarding this surgery and I wish they would go away, but they won't until I talk to my surgeon at my post-op appointment. But that's not until next wednesday so that's a lot of days to think.
What about you? Are there any mommies out there who are or have gone through the same thing I have? Do you have any advice? If so, I would sure love to hear it. I need all the advice and good thoughts I can get right now.
You know, when I was pregnant with Sofia, so many different questions were racing through my mind. About how I would be as a mother, how I would be able to take care of this little person or if we had enough stuff to take care of her with. But majority of the time, it was: How is Juan going to be as a father? Is he going to step up to the plate and do things I'm doing or is he just going to leave it to me. He didn't seem as interested when I was pregnant so it was always on my mind. But once Sofia was born let me tell you...
I have never seen a better father than my husband. He loves his daughter so much and does everything for her. He fed her when I was tired, changed her diaper when needed (even the explosive ones), he cuddled her, played with her. I was so amazed and so very happy to know that I had a man like this and that Sofia would never have to feel let down by him.
Because of my surgery and recovery, I truthfully didn't even know that this weekend was Father's Day weekend and so I didn't have anything to get him and Sofia isn't even here with us. I know...what the heck? But I decided to show you all what an awesome father he is. Through pictures and video. I think that I might just do this every year as he and Sofia can be quite photogenic. So without further ado...every single picture and from 2012 to 2014 of Juan being the best father he can be to our princess Sofia.
It's been two weeks since I had my surgery and while I'm still recovering, I'm able enough to walk around and at least come on to the computer and update. So praise the Lord for that. Bits and pieces are fuzzy when it comes to my recovery in the hospital because of all the drugs in my system, but I do remember some things.
I remember getting to the hospital at 5 in the morning because my surgery was at 7:30. Gave me an IV, got to meet all the doctors and nurses and soon found myself in the operating room and asleep. Woke up in pain and after they put my abdominal binder on, took me to my room where I found out to my horror that I wasn't able to eat anything as I was on a liquid diet. Oh My Lord! I could have died right then! The growling my stomach was telling me all I needed to know. But I went with eating jello and Italian Ice that was on the menu.
To be honest I am surprised that I'm even able to remember any of this because I was morphined! That along with another drug and I was in and out of sleep the whole stay. I would be talking to somebody and the next minute...ZZZZZ. Very heavy sleep! Also I think I might have called a few people! That's what my call log says on my phone anyway.
Yep, drugged out of my mind. But I still look kind of cute.
All in all it was a good stay at the hospital. I was taken care of by some awesome nurses and staff. My mom was there taking care of me too. But what was so completely amazing was how much care I got from my hubby. Juan really stepped up to the plate and took care of me. He would feed me, give me water, helped me get up to use the bathroom and etc. It didn't stop there either, once I was able to go home, he helped me with my drains and getting up from couch and even cooked for me. I was wondering who this man was the whole time cause it wasn't the same husband to went with me to the hospital that morning! This experience has made us grow closer, I think. We talk more and laugh. It makes me really happy.
Sofia has been really good with this too. Even though she wanted so badly to climb all over me and cuddle, she made sure she didn't and would lay next to me on my side or sit next to me on the couch. It's not the same, believe me. I want so badly to pick her up and hug her so tight. But I can't til 4 weeks. It sucks but I want to be recovered enough so I don't have to worry about anything else.
I'm glad that recovery is going faster than I expected. I even noticed that the surgeon made some of my diastasis go away too. My stomach is so much smaller than before! Thank the Lord for that too. It still needs core work though. But in time...everything will work out. It always does.