Our baby girl has made it to the one month mark and it's gone by faster than I thought! I realize that I have been posting lots of pictures lately and not a lot of quality blog posts, but this little lady is keeping me on my toes. Waking up early to breastfeed and keeping that breastfeeding going all day long is pretty tiring. I still feel like a milk machine and it's not exactly the best feeling when she suckles. In fact, it's pretty excruciating because she has a unbalanced latch. But it's all worth it to know that I'm making food for her to grow into a chubby little thing as seen below. I will risk anything to make this Little Miss happy.
I've had my little girl, Sofia and so far, taking care of her has been the biggest challenge I have ever partaken on. I've had so many ups and down on the way its not even funny, but despite that, I love her so much. We are still learning about one another, but no doubt a bond is there.
The process of the laboring was traumatic, but pushing her out was surprisingly fast and painless. At first after having her I was like, "Never again..." but I'm getting a hang of this mothering experience.
It has been a long road that's for sure. She's going to be a month tomorrow on the 26th and is just the cutest ball of baby I've ever seen. That's not even because she's mine! She's just cute! She loves to smile and she's starting to talk to us as well. Her head control is pretty good. She still flops from side to side but she's getting better.
Soi is a breastfed baby and she LUV DA BOOBY! She can't get enough sometimes. For those that say that breastfeeding is difficult, they are exactly right! It was so hard at first because she latched on pretty good at first but then in the hospital they were saying that she was a bit jaundiced so I had to start supplementing with formula. She seemed to go downhill from there when it came to latching. If it wasn't the latching, it was the fact that I has to wake up so many times to feed her. I seriously felt like a milk factory and not a mother.
Now, it's so much better. We definitely bond when we are nursing. She stares up at me and I look at her and smile, loving that she depends on me to take care of her and that she trusts me. The latch still needs a little bit of work, but we'll practice more and more.
She is loved by all in the family. As the first grandbaby on both sides, that's to be expected I guess. My mother also called "Love" is so smitten with her and loves to hold her. We live with her right now, so she gets the privilege to see her every day. My in-laws see her a lot too, almost every other week. I like that because that way she can learn more about her Hispanic culture and even learn Spanish.
Sofia is so special and I thank God that he gave me the opportunity to have her and to be her mother. I just hope I don't let her down. I won't let my parents guide the way I raise her. I refuse.
I'm amazed I am even able to be up and about after Sofia's birth, but here I am doing things and getting in the truck and stuff. We had to get Sofia tested to make sure that all her jaundice was out of her system so there was no getting around that. I was sore and aching from stitches and sore muscles while my feet have gotten so swollen that I had to get new shoes to fit them. But regardless there I was going to family get-togethers and passing my baby girl around, hoping to the Lord that they weren't going to get her sick.
Juan was a big help and still is. He's very helpful with Sofia at night, rocking her back to sleep after I feed her and changing her diapers. He's showing that he can be a wonderful dad. This little girl is his world.
Two weeks after Sofia's arrival.
I can tell that I'm not doing too well sleep wise. Ever since I had Little Miss, I've been so anxious and every time I try to go to sleep, my body jerks itself awake...I'm miserable sleep wise. Hopefully that will change soon. I'm going to need my rest if I'm going to take care of my little girl.